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title = "Checking In"
date = 2022-06-17
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Disclaimer reminder
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I write this blog for my future self and possibly any future relatives.
I don\'t really do social media anymore. My family/relatives have a
fairly good concept of our history, at least back to the beginning of
the 1900s, in some cases a little farther. Hopefully this can serve as
my part to providing a clue to what is going on from my perspective.

Catching up
===========

An old friend sent me a message yesterday. I\'ve been reaching out to
several friends online the last few days, maybe weeks, because during
the pandemic my social life has almost completely tanked. Especially the
last year has been bad.

I think I wrote about this in another post, but someone I know said I
live the bear life. Sleep, work, eat, repeat. I started to think back in
December that I looked tired, too.

One of my fingernails almost looks normal again. Maybe another two
weeks, maybe a month. Since January, from the accident, some parts of me
are taking time to return to \"normal\".

There are other things I don\'t write about on here. Mostly because I
don\'t want to share everything. But I think the general idea comes
across. Or, I hope it does.

So my friend sent me that message. I hope we can catch up.

Equity and Contribution
=======================

This is intentially vague.

I have several skills, maybe a few talents. Even on my blog here I hint
at a few things in my resume, but I\'ve had a fairly diverse past in
terms of work history. And most people just don\'t know about it. Even
my family, current family, might not know much about it because things
were different. Around ten years ago I lost one of my closest relatives.
Probably one of my best friends. And even they probably didn\'t know
everything about me, but they tried their best and we were in each
other\'s lives until they were gone. They died.

Around that same time, there was another person in my life who literally
left me. We had some good times before they left. At one point it seemed
like they were coming back, and I hung on for a little while, but they
left again.

So recently I\'ve been thinking about that time in my life. Back then,
professionally I had been using a completely different skill set(s) for
my primary source of income. But it\'s complicated, because except for
2021, I\'ve pretty much always had a more than one thing going on... And
around that time I had more than two or three things going on.

Getting back to skills, I also have a few things I\'m really bad at. And
to bring up the accident again, some things that I was good or capable
at, but still have not returned.

One thing that\'s been difficult recently is being asked to help with
things I am just not good at. Or when I\'m asked to go along with
something I know is wrote that I\'m really good at.

Reading
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-   <https://docs.microsoft.com/en-us/dotnet/maui/>
-   <https://docs.microsoft.com/en-us/dotnet/maui/user-interface/controls/blazorwebview>
-   <https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/GRPC>
-   <https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/PGP_word_list>
-   <https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Protocol_Buffers>
-   <https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/STUN>
-   <https://github.com/xamarin/Xamarin.Forms/issues/8640>
-   <https://www.reddit.com/r/dotnetMAUI/comments/uhzrxf/what_are_some_of_xamarin_forms_shortcomingscons/>
